Its not fare...oops it so is... sorry :)))))

How many times do we use this phrase : "Its not fare :("...Wen 5, oh i din get tht toy, its not fare..at 10, tht cycle i sud be the one ridin on, its not fare...at 15, wish i was the topper, she wud then be askin for my company, its not fare....at 21, I cud hav done better with my career, its not fare...

what a sad truth...wen we hav somethin we dont realise how gud it is to have them only till we lose them...n then again, y din i realise before, its not fare..huh..

If i ask myself, my old me can teach me many things..but im not ready to accept me as my own teacher...dun trust or something..
stil i can try once to be a little more sensible and all..whatever

Who the hell cares..just work eat drink smoke and sleep...that is the way life should be...oh sleep time..

c ya tomo..
bbye gud nite:PP

what I've done...

Last three years have not been easy for my writing career..Yes, unlike many of my friends i wanted and still do, to be a writer. Initially, the kind of topics i used to write about were not very encouraging...Rather there was anger in the mood and there was no hope and dissatisfaction all over..And then when i thought about taking the writing professionally, i got encapsulated within greed and lust for fame..With the success stories of all the masala books, stories of engineering life, management colleges and blah and blah, i actually started believing that the kind of lines i used to write were not going to catch the eyes of many..I changed my wrting style, i even changed the ideas which i used to write about, for i wanted to be one of the best sellers daddy...stupid me..
I wasted such a long time writing all these stories with just one thing in mind that "are they gona enjoy it?" and this for me came as a great mistake because when i read it, i hated it...i mean this is not why i started writing at the first place..If i cant express the way i think, there is no use of writing..So my first project went in vain taking away a lot of time, a really good effort and of course it took away a lot of frustration too because now at least i know what i have to write about...
A new start that i am going to begin, wish me luck for...

Do i really love what i do??

I suddenly watched a video after a long time...Its a speech by Steve Jobs at Stanford University and today I actually felt the meaning of his words..He raised a few questions like "Do we really love what we do?" and "If today is your last day, would you still be doing the same what you are doing now??"...

"Life has always been a cricket ground and every time I aim for a century, I am out at duck.." This was mine by the way ;)

He also said that if you are doing something what you love and it doesnt make sense to you at present, dont be afraid...It actually will..May be it may take a bit longer (in his case around 10 years) but it will..definitely..Dots are better connected backwards..

I am currently looking for a reason which is going to give me enough strength to follow my heart and to start doing what I actually want to...